The Second Weekend in Leader’s School

We were changing ungodly beliefs into Godly beliefs and renouncing inner vows. When we got to generational sins the Holy Spirit told Sheryn and Carl Turner to wash the feet of the Black people at the School and to ask forgiveness for the sins of their fathers for having slaves and for racism. As they were washing my feet the Holy Spirit showed me a vision of me at 5 years old. I was standing in the sand (possibly in our front yard) and my hair was nappy and I was barefoot and I remember saying I don’t want to be black and nappy haired like that and I didn’t like the way we were living and I wanted to be anybody but who I was. 

I, over the years, attributed that to the way our mother had to work and how I felt deprived of things that I saw others with because we lived on a plantation. I wanted the pretty hair, pretty dresses, nice shoes and nice houses they were living in and we were not. So, I actually felt that she (Sheryl) was asking forgiveness to someone who didn’t wanna be.

The Holy Spirit was showing me how I had made an inner vow about who the Father had created me to be. So I had gone on a journey when I graduated from high school to be anything but who I was. I literally went out into the wilderness in 1967 and have been wandering around trying to find love and here I am today, 2007, a physical 40 years later. The Lord has me embracing my identify and acknowledging that this little 5-year old held the very destiny that He spoke into me before the foundation of the earth. That I am fearfully and wonderfully made and was created with purpose and that that purpose and destiny will be fulfilled throughout eternity.

The Holy Spirit has also showed me how that I can now embrace that heritage and legacy that were set into motion by my ancestors and that because no one ever stepped out in the anointings and mantels in my family that He has chosen me to pioneer those things. That I am special and the apple of His eye.

I am embracing the passion for music and dance that was very much a part of praise, worship and fun in my family. Cooking, dressmaking, giving and caring. Most of all I am trying to just be to receive the love of God in my heart so that I can give it to others. There were mantels of healing, intercession, dream interpretation and so much that I am just claiming them all.

If I can help somebody with a word or a song

If I can help somebody from doing wrong

If I can help somebody as I sing this song

Then my living shall not be in vain

I want to live and not die and be a testimony for the glory and goodness of the Father by the love that I show to others. I know that after physically coming out of the wilderness for literally 40 years that this truly is the first day of the best days of my life to come.

Velma Moss