Hello Elsie and Ramesh!

 

I was unable to talk to you personally due to the fact that everyone was expressing their love for the both of you...so forgive me for leaving a note!! 

 

I have been deeply blessed and encouraged to pursue with great expectancy and boldness declaring the promises my Father gave to me!!  

 

May I share some of my testimony to encourage you? During the class and continuing I have undergone some deep inner healing pertaining to childhood with abandonment and rejection. I have undergone much more forgiveness and releasing of bitter judgments, etc that were hidden but the Lord brought them to the surface, Praise God!     I also understand that I did not value men according to the Lord but I had placed labels out of hurt and pain (many labels!) God is still bringing more to the surface!! Thru this I came to understand that this has caused limits with my husband and true intimacy.... and also caused that blockage with my Father.....  

 

I am learning even more that I do have value and worth and that I do have much to offer others!   I have known it in my head but since the class, this has been absorbed in my heart.  I am also learning to receive from others!!   I have always had a giving heart, but receiving was an issue ~ but I am learning to receive from others. Praise God!

 

It has been easy for me to love others, but hard for me to love the ones who continually push just the right buttons ~ hurt, pain, rejection, abandonment...etc.   You know the ones who continuously pick at those scabs that you just walked thru forgiveness and now the Lord has begun the healing process??? The wound is healing, yet once again the scab is now bleeding and the sore spot has been opened again....    I have had the toughest time wrestling with God about these individuals questioning what am I doing wrong now??? I know I must have questioned God a thousand times if not more....only to find out that God was still working on the inside of me.... I have since learned to rely upon Father as my source for acceptance, value, self worth, healing, tenderness, gentleness, etc....you get the picture....Father God has had to become my source for everything!!    But, Father was not thru with just that....it has more to it!!

 

Here is that story:

I went out to rescue a frog that jumped into the pool one morning... this is a daily rescue mission who was unable to get out.   I placed an object in the water to rescue the helpless frog struggling for survival in the pool....when I got him safely onto the object to lift him out of the water; he jumped right back into the water as if I was the enemy!!   I even said to the little frog, "Don't you see I am only trying to help you?"   Just then I heard the Lord say to me, "This is you, Linda ~ you are the frog".   Of course, I questioned the Lord about that and He clearly told me, "I do the same for you and all my children....I send them help and they reject Me"... Okay, now Father has my full attention.... He continues..."The very ones that I send to my children to rescue them out of their situation are the very ones they run from". He continues, "I sent them to bring understanding into your situation to bring about change in you" "They are pulling out all the old ways (mindsets/responses) to bring about the transformation from glory to glory".    Then I began understanding what He was saying to me.... it was the very ones that were pushing my buttons that Father was using to allow me to react and/or respond to a given situation that was causing grief in my spirit.   I was reacting in the same manner I decided years ago that I was not going to do when I grew up....and this caused me to not only realize I had another inner vow that I had to deal with...but it also brought clarity to my issues of generational sins of the fathers....   Because the frogs natural instinct is to run from us....he was refusing my help (I was the enemy)....the same thing being...because of my up-bringing I knew of only one way to respond to situations....thus (I am my own enemy)...   I was reacting rather than responding by waiting on the Lord....   Thus is another testimony!   God is teaching me to wait on Him before reacting which is in turn is transforming my old way of responding into His way.... waiting and listening and responding in love....!!!

 

This is just a tidbit of all that this Leadership Training Course has added to my healing process and maturity as a member of the Body of Christ....I do not apologize on the length of the email because then I would not be giving glory to my Father is I leave anything out!!

 

I have had nothing but an awesome time and I game to the training with great expectancy, an open heart and I am walking out it out to gain more fruit in my life for my Daddy!! Amen!

 

Father, I speak great blessings upon Elsie and Ramesh and expect great powerful testimonies of all that You are doing thru them!   I apply the blood of Jesus over this new ministry and step of obedience in You and I call forth divine supernatural protection over them, provision in all areas of their life and this ministry and Your favor Lord!!   

 

I ask that the Oil would increase upon their lives as they release the River of Life ~ YOU!! Father, I call all the doors ~ Opened that You would have them to walk thru! May Your glorious presence be felt and manifested for all to see!!!   May Your Glorious awesome character and nature be revealed!!!    May Your tangible presence be with them always and may Your presence remain and linger everywhere You send these precious hosts of Your glorious presence and awesome love!! In the name of JESUS!!

 

I ask that You prepare the hearts, make them pliable, receptive and thirsty!!   May Your will come to pass Father as it is in heaven...may it be on the earth!! In Jesus name I pray... I will be praying!! I love you guys!

 

Blessings,

Linda